Passerby*Mei

I think im gonna suffere insomnia more than ever recently...

Things can't always go as u thought!

And u can not prepare for every aspect before it finally turns out......

Sometimes I want to be totally separated from the real world...

cos the facts are too cruel to be accpeted

Everyone has the right to truth.

But somehow it is easy to know but not carry on~~

This time, is only more ridiculous!

It's so hard to wave to yesterday...

Some past of past can never be passed...

 

I'm glad to know the truth because once i thought cos after that I can completely get rid of the past and start the new life!

But now, how could I just walk on with my head up high...?

What really matters in the big and seemed-everlasting world?

What is really important?

What should we take seriously?

If you know the meaning of real life, what else you can't give up?

I thought a lot today...

I could not write anymore...

这一次我没有纠结，不要再说我纠结了...

我是真的郁闷了~~

我不知道这一次我要花多长时间恢复

我不想抱怨了...

这就是成长的代价吧~

只是这个代价未免太过承重...

我犯的错误，我不会掩饰

就该我承受...

只是希望，老天爷对我的惩罚不要太难让我背负...

就当是每个人都有自己的过去吧

幸好还有你们，我亲爱的朋友们~~

有你们，我没有那么孤单和无助：

也是因为你们，再ridiculous的事情你们也可以包容...

理解我的傻，理解我的无奈，理解我的不争气，理解我的不可救药...

在你们面前，我可以很真实，很轻松~

最最感谢的是晓晓，给了我很多支持！

还有跟着晓晓认识的一帮朋友：

妹妹，红红，花花，超超，东哥，嫂子，黎大爷...

（还有很多，不能一一点名，排名不分先后）

跟你们在一起，简单，快乐

还有HP，就算偶尔来不及给你时时汇报，但是我知道你一直在那里，你可以倾听~

我希望那个坚强的雪梅能快点回来！

让所有泪水都成为一种点缀吧~

伤心后，至少可以换来自由...

 

我觉得我还是应该怀抱希望的~

相信自己，不管别人怎么对我，我还是会一样的真诚

我会一如既往的努力，不要再被孤单忧伤

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一路奔跑，一路遗失;一路小跑，一路遗落

那就让我再看看，然后继续追逐梦想。

 

 

 

 

Sometimes you think something for sure, but it just turned out into another direction...

 

Maybe it is really the time for me to throw away the past and move on.

 

I just carry on too much and worry too much. I dont even know what I am worried about~

 

FUTURE WILL TAKE CARE ITSELF!

 

This is what I learned.

 

It's hard to make a choice. I am struggling with the process...

 

I know I'll be ok the moment I've made my mind. It's just too difficult for me to admit something...

 

I once was naive to believe that if you work hard enough, you will overcome any obstacles which seem unsurmountable.

 

Am I right? What if the other dont think so...?

 

I must face something...

 

For many words I couldnt say...But I really care a lot...

 

I know you probably wont see this. And you wont know how much I have struggled or been through.

I am just the silly girl. How could I learn to be a little bit smarter??

 

Couldnt write anymore...

 God Bless

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Again, Thursday Evening

 

Every Thursday evening I am worried about whether I could get back without any troublesome.

 

Today, school finished actually quite early but still, today became my worst day since I've been here.

 

For many reasons I really need this 700 Bus.

I dont want to bother my uncle to pick me up. so if there is one bus I can take, I will definitely wait.

Secondly, I could not accept his offer driving me home cos he has to work and my place is really far away.

And I dont feel like grabbing a cap if I have other choices.

But tonight...

 

I got to blacktown station at 8:55; arrived at the bus stop one minute later only to find out that it has already gone just ONE min ago...that meant I had to wait another half an hour~well, fine, not the first time. I talked to Gus to discuss what was the plan for tmr (Easter Good Friday) and also, talked to Benny. (I couldnt believe that I hadnt heard my phone ring. And when I noticed, there were three missed calls all from him...sorry, my dear, maybe I was rushing to the station that moment.) 20m, long as usual.) Then my "nighmare" came. I waited and waited but there was no bus coming at all. The security guard was so nice he came and helped me check with the station cos usually the last one is supposed to come around 9:24. Reply was like the driver was left but the point was: gone where? and where was the bus? since they could reach the driver, they also would not like leaving alone, they were trying to make some help. They sent for another bus to particularly take me back. I was appreciated that...and 10:15, there was one coming from Seven Hills...well, what should I say? yep, thanks for helping out. but the public trasportation system in Aus is really...esp. in the suburb. ops I was bad luck~

the good news was that I was safe back home now. and I didnt bother my uncle and neither anyone else. I was the only one "suffered" from this. But God finally sent someone to save me out.

Benny is going to Melb early trm morning. I havent seen him for long. I miss him. lookin forward to his being back.

God Bless All!

Happy Easter Holiday!